I am disappointed. What will happen if someone commits suicide?
Actual Question from a girl devotee:
“NOW A DAYS I FEEL LIKE I M DEVIATED FROM LORD KRISHNA’S WAY I M NT CHANTING HARE KRISHNA AS BEFORE. I M FEELING NOW A DAYS VERY LONELY VERY BAD FRUSTRATED VEXED ANGER ……FOR THE PAST MONTH, LIFE IS GOING VERY VERY EMPTY. I M REALLY HOPELESS ..CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME SUGGESTION HOW TO OVERCOME THIS…MORE OVER I HAD A DOUBT THAT IF PEOPLE DID SUICIDE WHAT L HAPPEN AFTER DEATH?”
All your words show that you had so much of expectations in life and many of them failed. Where there are expectations, there will be disappointments. Because, if you expect 10 things, there is a probability that atleast 4-5 goes in negative.
So, stop expecting more from this world and people. Once you decide so, your peaceful life starts.
The whole life is full of probabilities. “Either – or”. This is life. May happen Or may not happen. If anyone says that all his wishes in his life have so far been successfully achieved, he is a liar. Don’t believe him.
Everyone of us has both happiness and sorrows in life. No one is immune to problems.
Krishna has said in Bhagavad Gita that attachments leads later to anger. That is what you are feeling now. More material attachments, more disappointments!
If you develop love on Krishna and trust Him totally, you will not get dejected like this. Instead, you will enjoy serving Him in any state.
Krishna is mercifully clearing your karma after you started chanting. Therefore, till this process is over, you should be patiently waiting.
When we clean our house, more dusts are coming out than before. Because, our house is getting cleaned.
Similarly, when you start to chant, all your dirty things go out one by one. So, you may feel disappointed or emptiness.
Once all these anarthas (unwanted things) are sent out of you, you will come back to the original blissful state. Instead of loading anarthas in mind, keeping it empty is better because you can easily situate Krishna in the empty mind.
Just because of disappointments, do not stop chanting. Hopefully continue that.
You have also asked what will happen if we commit suicide.
Committing suicide is not an escape from the pains of our human life. It is the start of the most serious pains as a ghost.
If Krishna has fixed our age as 90, but we commit suicide in the age of 20, we violate the karma rules of Krishna. So, we have to face the punishments for that. We will have to wander as ghosts for the remaining 70 years and also some extra punishment period by going to some hells for that violation and finally we will take birth again.
Do you think being a ghost is easy?
No. It is tideous. Ghosts will have all the feelings like hunger, sex, etc as they have sukshma body (Subtle body made up of mind, intelligence and ego). But, they can’t eat or have sex because they do not have gross body.
How hellish this is! We can not remain without eating even for two days. But, as a ghost, he has to live for 60-70 years without food, water, sex, etc.
Instead of this, he can live with some pains, without committing suicide.
Being a ghost is the greatest punishment. They have to wander all over for 100+ years with stomach hunger and also sexual hunger.
So, my request for all the youth is that NEVER THINK OF SUICIDE.
If you do not like to live, instead of suicide, go and start spiritual life associating with the devotees in spiritual organizations (Sathsanghas). This will make your life really meaningful.
Instead of dieing, live for serving Krishna.
Then leave this body naturally.
This will protect you from taking further births and will take you to Lord for an eternal and blissful service.
Hope you are clear now.