Is it wrong feeling that Krishna does not exist now as He never hears me?
A Female devotee who requested anonymity asked like this:
“I sometimes feel krishna never listens and he just wants us to do his worship and chant his name he is so selfish. It is better to worship demigods bcoz krishna just wants us to take his name and do nothing for his devotees and just sit and watgh them cry and suffer no matter how much devotional service u do or how much u rem him.
Although he says in gita those who remember me i m their friend and i think its all just to make people do his service but in the end what we get is sufferings n pain n he will just sit there n watch us crying and enjoying bcoz he doesn’t care sorry to say that but one recent exp has made me hate him and i don’t think i can ever rem him again as even after remember him when i use to wake up at night he just trashed me i never did any harm to anyone i always do lot of charity and this is what i get how can one believe in god under such situation.
I don”t feel his presence in this yuga. If he wants us to rem him he should atleast show his presence some how else no one will be ever be able to b in him. We have our mind and logic and we cant accept something if it doesn’t. Show his presence as we r not fools.
Sorry if i offended u. Do not disclose my name”
This feeling that Krishna does not exist seem to have come out out of frustration. Still you are wrong as you are not a child, but a grown up girl and you should not speak like this.
Actually, The same Krishna is feeding and giving space to live even for atheists. As Krishna has entrusted this material world to mayadevi, she is making us to think like that to engage you further in her material world.
But, only those who conquer the tricks of mayadevi and continues to have full faith in Krishna can get all the special benefits and special mercy from Krishna.
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The best example is Srila Prabhupada, the founder of ISKCON. When he traveled to America, he suffered two heart attacks. Usually, a person may survive only until 3 heart attacks. Some may even survive in 3rd attack. So, in this condition, Srila Prabhupada did not get angry on Krishna as he faced two heart attacks while he was travelling to U.S to preach Krishna Consciousness. He could have thought that there is no Krishna at all and that is why, he gave heart attacks to him without gratitude as he was going to preach His name only.
However, Srila Prabhupada continued his journey and faced still more hurdles during his tenure in America, and then finally, Krishna gave him an outstanding success in his mission of preaching. Now, his name is spoken in all the continents in this world.
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So, if you accept Krishna only for getting any benefits, you will forget him in two ways:
(1) After getting benefits from Lord, you may forget him.
(2) If the desired benefits are not fulfilled, you may again forget him out of frustration and non-belief thinking that Krishna does not exist.
But, 99% of the people have the Starting level of devotion of expecting benefits for their prayers and then feeling that Krishna does not exist if their prayers are not answered immediately. Only less than 1% serve Krishna selflessly with no expectations that our site emphasize without compromising from the highest standard.
Even in the sathsanghas and temples, some devotees support the sathsanghas or temples till they get some benefits and then stop abruptly. Every devotee would think that every temple or sathsangha will be getting lakhs or crores of money from thousands of people and why all the devotees should support. As a result, only a few will help them consistently. They won’t bother what the temples or sathsanghas will do if everyone thinks like that and stop. However, in reality, managing the finances involved in the services or temples is difficultas there will be fluctuations in recipts, but the expenses will be in the rising trend. Only one to two percent of the people are philonthropists in any society or temple or sathsangha. Every temple or sathsangha runs only with the support of these 1-2% of philonthropists. In general, the people think everything in their own angle and they never understand the pains and problems of others who are working for common cause. That is why, many Vishnu or Siva temples are suffering without funds that I have seen personally as heard from the temple managers themselves.
In my state, even out of 108 divya desams (Vishnu temples), many temples struggle to pay even the salary to the priests. Out of thousands of temples in India, Only a few temples that project material benefits to the people ‘in return to the donations’ are flourishing with funds. If a temple advertise that a donor will get 100 times more than what they donate, the temple will flourish like anything. This is the trend of kaliyuga as many people expect some returns or atleast honours like sign boards for their donation. They may donate a ‘tube light’ that would have been printed with their name hiding the lighting body.
In this scenario, minimum number of some chosen people support only the selfless devotional services without any expectations. Krishna rewards them with the advancement in devotion to Himself.
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That is why, Our acharyas said not to expect any benefits from the lord if one likes to follow advanced level of devotion.. Though it is also allowed, the topmost level of devotion is to love Krishna without any expectations but, His mercy and love only. He has given perfect body for us to work and earn. So, we can work. If we face any problems, Lord has given good brain to evaluate your problems and find a solution for it. If all our attempts fail, we can pray to Lord to give us more capacity to solve that problem. So, this kind of selfless devotion will never give disappointments for the devotees.
And, a matured Krishna devotee takes whatever happens in his life as the blessings of lord. Though any negative incident happens for him, he thinks that Krishna has done this for any reason that will do good for us at the end. So, that devotee has no disappointments and feeling that Krishna does not exist.
Most importantly, what qualification we have to see Krishna? Is Krishna that much local to be seen near your bed when you wake up? Srila Prabhupada said in his ISOPANISHAD lectures that Krishna should not be treated like an ordinary person and we need certain qualifications to associate with Krishna.
The important qualification is UNSHAKABLE FAITH IN KRISHNA though we are facing continuous problems in life. We would have done so many serious offences and crimes in our previous lives. So, in this birth, we are in a position to face their reaction. So, we face the problems. Without understanding this, if we scold Krishna, it shows our ignorance.
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The Lord has given this rare human body and also some freedom to choose our way of life. So, if we had misused that freedom in our past births and did many sinful acts, how can we blame Lord for problems in this birth?
Is Krishna your servant maid to come and stand in front of you whenever you call Him? Have you evaluated whether you have qualification to see Krishna?
Do you know when Krishna controls Himself to his devotees? He comes down and comes to us, only when we have unshakable faith and love in Him, without any material attachments.
Even when Draupati faced serious crisis to her purity in the court of Duryodhana, Krishna did not help her immediately. She called all her kiths and kins one by one and tried her own efforts to save her. Krishna was waiting for her SURRENDER. So, when she gave up all the hopes and decided that only Krishna can save her, she folded her hands and called Krishna in a surrendered state. Krishna now came to her rescue.
So, if Krishna should come whenever you need, you need to surrender to Him. When the surrender will come? Only when we have full faith in Him. When a wife and husband can love each other? Only when they surrender their ego of “I” and live for the opponent. Wife lives for husband and husband lives for wife. So, love.
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Same applies here. If you surrender your ego of “I” and remain fully surrendered to Krishna, He will never let you down. This personal protection of Lord will not be available for non-devotees and those who doubt Krishna.
I hope that you have now understood that you do not have SURRENDER in the case of Krishna. That is why, you expect Krishna to come to you in person though you are still proud about your capacity.
Though Krishna comes in person to you, you can not FEEL His greatness and you will raise doubtful questions to Him and start to test Him. So, unless you believe Krishna, you can not get the personal protection of Krishna. The general benefits like bread and butter based on your karma will be given by Lord, not His personal protections.
So, first give up your ego and surrender to the Lord wholeheartedly and just remain as an instrument in the hands of Lord. Now, you can realize the presence of Lord in you.
I do not tell this for fame or pride: I really feel the Lord’s presence in me and I am seeing that He is DIRECTLY & PERSONALLY protecting me in so many crises. I have faced serious crises in life, but, I never distrusted Lord. However, the Lord is blessing me with His mercy and is giving a “balanced” knowledge in Krishna Consciousness. This is possible because, I never doubt Him. I thank Him even when I face negatives in life as He is purifying me.
ALWAYS KEEP THIS IN MIND: WE ONLY ARE THE CAUSE FOR ALL OUR SUFFERINGS. NOT KRISHNA. OUR EVERY ACTION IS RECORDED AS KARMA AND WE ARE GIVEN REACTIONS. WE DID NOT HESITATE TO ADD KARMA, BUT, WE DO NOT LIKE TO FACE THEIR REACTIONS AND BLAME KRISHNA WITH THE FEELING THAT KRISHNA DOES NOT EXIST.
So, Krishna is ready to embrace you. But, you must keep your heart with pure selfless love for Krishna to be associated with Lord personally.
Hope you are clear that feeling that Krishna does not exist is wrong.
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