Is showing anger on Krishna right?
ACTUAL QUESTION from a male devotee:
Hare krishna prabhu!!!! I want to ask rather silly question or it may be a genuine question too… 15th august was janmashtami and i was not able to attend any temple or even do my usual normal prayers on that day because i was not well and was on bed for entire day… My health deterioarated on 12 th august and i was totally bed ridden till 17th august…. Now my question is…being a devotee of lord…by heart i wanted to organise a small krishna aarti and wanted to bring laddu gopal at my home…it was again by heart i wanted to cherish those sweet moments with him,play with him,pamper him infact on janmashtami day… But as i told u i was genuinely not even in a condition to even my body a bit due to illness… NOW I AM A BIT ANGRY ON LORD KRISHNA as he didnt fulfilled my wish of coming to my home and am not even talking to him (reading geeta though)…. Is it fine on my part or any devotees part that he/she show some anger just as parents show anger on thier child… Its obvious i will start again talking to him when my anger subsides may be in a week…but as a devotee do we have a right to express our emotions of anger on him….obviously we love him but can we be angry on him for few days… Hare Krishna… !!!!
There are many forms of anger that people show on Krishna:
(1) Even Krishna’s mother showed anger on Krishna and even tied Him by the robe.
But, she did not know that He is Krishna.
She saw Him just as a child, of course, a special, naughty child.
(2) Krishna’s Gopa friends showed anger on Krishna, but, with the right of being close friends.
(3) Radharani showed anger on Krishna when He did not visit her for long and even said not to allow Krishna inside her house if He comes, but, it is with the divine love.
(4) Kamsa and Duryodhana showed anger on Krishna. But with enmighty.
(5) Indra showed anger on Krishna and poured torrential rain, but, with jealousy.
Thus, there are many forms of anger.
Out of them, the first three forms of anger is seen as innocent anger. It is gentle, harmless and the anger with utmost right to show.
The last two forms, ie, anger with enmighty and jealousy is not allowed. Because, it leads to destruction.
Even in the families, we have been seeing that children show their anger on mother when she delays cooking.
They show anger on father if he advises them.
The wife shows anger on husband if he comes late from job any day.
These are all harmless anger. Because, THE BASELINE BEHIND SUCH ANGER IS LOVE AND RIGHT TO SHOW. The persons involved in such anger are not going to become separate from each other.
Same applies to the anger shown by the devotees to Krishna.
Krishna permits and even enjoys innocent anger from His devotees.
It is also a rasa.
It is the private affair between Krishna and His devotees.
Among Navarasas, like Love, even showing harmless anger is a rasa.
However, I can say that advanced devotees need not show anger on Krishna.
Because, they trust Krishna totally.
I have a story from the history of Sri Ramanuja Acharya.
A great devotee of Krishna Sri. THIRUKKACHCHI NAMBI, a very very humble devotee of Krishna (Narayana) in Kancheepuram, Tamilnadu was singing the glories of Krishna while walking along a land holding the flowers collected to offer to Krishna.
On his way, a villager who was doing some small services and earning for his living, met him and told him:
“Sri Thirukkachchi Nambi ji. You are doing direct service to Krishna in the temple and I know that you are even discussing with Lord directly in front of the deities. Can you ask him whether Krishna has planned to take me to His abode at the end of this birth itself? I will meet you again to know this”
Thirukkachchi Nambi ji could discuss with Krishna that night when he was in his service to the deities of Krishna.
He asked Krishna what that man asked:
“He will take hundreds of births and then come to me at the end”
Next day, when Nambi ji was walking with flowers meant for Lord, the same man met him again and asked him:
“Nambiji, did you ask Krishna?”
Nambi was worried how that man will take if he says that to go back to Krishna’s abode, he has to take hundreds of births.
Nambi replied with hesitation:
“Oh dear man, Krishna told me that He will take you to His abode after hundreds of your births”
That man jumped with joy:
“Wow, how fortunate I am. This shows that Krishna is going to take me to His abode one day. I can go to Vaikunta. That is enough for me. Thanks for this happy news”
Nambi could not believe the reaction of that man. He did not worry for hundreds of births. Since he has known that he will go to Krishna one day, he feels happy that he too will be eligible for vaikunta one day.
He learnt the superior nature of devotion on Krishna from that man.
What this shows?
A humble devotee will be happy and satisfied whatever Krishna decides about him.
He never demands something from Krishna. He accepts the happenings in life as it is.
You too have to be like that man.
Krishna made you sick to clear your karma and to clean your body.
It happened to be Janmashtami. That’s all.
Who prevented you to think of Krishna on that day?
Is going to temple alone devotion?
Devotion is related to heart.
You can show your devotion even from being on bed.
Who prevents you?
You can chant from bed. You can accept prasadam. You can make simple worships.
No barriers for this.
Going to temples is to enhance our devotional practices and to protect us from maya through devotee association and services.
Therefore, a learnt and self realized devotee, though he has right to show anger on Krishna, never shows his anger. Because, he takes every happening as the mercy of Lord.
Though you had shown your anger, it was for your inability to go to temple.
Therefore it is harmless.
However, come to the next higher stage. Accept every happening as the will and mercy of Krishna.
You will come out of blind emotions alone and become a matured and humble devotee.
Hope this clears your doubts.