Will the Reactions of Vaishnava offense affect us immediately?
A male devotee (Name hidden) asked like this:
I was a devotee when I was 16 years old, Started getting little ecstasy in chanting and crying, dancing for lord. One day due to my Ego and bad association, I blasphemed a Saint from Vrindavan although behind his back. Later asked his forgiveness but due to some reason, I got possessed by Demonic Spirits within just a month! Because of those demonic spirits, I once again offended that saint due to anger but I feel very regretful about all of the Apradhas I have committed.
I try to repent and now I glorify them. but the demonic spirits continue to make me abuse the saints against my will and torture me physically too. I chant a lot but it seems it does not effect the spirits and I cannot advance a bit in Bhakti, my Mind is very polluted and materialized, it was always absorbed in Krishna before committing the offences. How can I help my situation.”
REPLY:
It seems that you are an over thinking boy.
Firstly, you said that after blaspheming that Vaishnava, demonic spirits caught you and operate you.
Such incidents may not be possible because it is wrong that the Reactions of Vaishnava offense affect us immediately.
Demonic nature did not come because of offending that Vaishnava. Instead, just because you have some trace of demonic qualities, you had to blaspheme that saint.
Demonic quality is created by Rajo guna and Ego.
So, just because you have more Rajo guna and ego, they induce you to think or act against Vaishnavas.
When our mind is agitated or weak, all the negative forces may start to disturb us.
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In astrology, there is a rule: If the ascendant (Lagna) is strong, it will strengthen the whole horoscope and hence that person may be able to sustain the negativities given by other planets.
If the ascendant (lagna) is weak, though other planets are strong, they can’t give the benefits easily.
Similarly, since your mind is weak and/ or disturbed, you are getting this much of emotional outbursts and confusions.
If a vaishnava is blasphemed, the offender will not be affected immediately as you said. He can’t get liberated or go back to the Lord. And his devotional growth may be delayed. That’s all.
The reactions and effects of Vaishnava aparatha will not be magically instant as you explained.
It is a gradual process.
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You say that you have requested him for forgiveness also.
Once a Vaishnava forgives our offences/ aparatha, that offense is finished. It will be forgiven.
So, this itself shows that the problem is with the strength of your mind.
The strength of your moon has to be exactly calculated that will give the result that you have weakness of mind control or stability.
When the mind is weak, it will run “here and there” and think without control.
And, the mind will always be fearful for everything.
In the Vaishnava culture, there is no place for magical happenings as said by you.
And, there are no magical punishments, visit of demons, retaliations, hell terms, etc in our life if we commit Vaishnava offense..
Krishna bhakti is the outcome of the cultivation of our satva guna.
Though you offend a Vaishnava seriously, they never retaliate. They instantly forgive others if asked.
(Repenting For Vaishnava Aparatha (Offense) Properly! A Case Study! READ HERE!)
If you offend a Vaishnava, you may not grow fast in devotional life. If you praise the Vaishnavas and associate with them, you will grow fast in devotion.
These are the only two results if you offend a Vaishnava.
And, if you do not take meat and do not involve in violations and chant Hare Krishna (and/or) Gayathri Manthra, no negative forces or demons can enter your house.
So, please develop sufficient strength for your mind. Think Positive. Trust Krishna’s and Vaishnavas’ mercy. Don’t think excessively in devotional life.
Be clear that it is wrong that the Reactions of Vaishnava offense affect us immediately!
Just chant from your heart, follow four regulative principles and get the association of vaishnavas – all with a surrendered – humble mindset.
All the auspiciousness will automatically follow.
If you think beyond this, same devotion may become a disturbance for you.
It may even affect your psychology making you extremely emotional.
This is my bold advice with good intention to see you peaceful and blissful, not in a confused state.
Best of luck.
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