Can a girl desire to be an exclusive wife of Krishna?
A Girl devotee (Name hidden) asked like this:
“Hare Krishna Prabhuji. Apko mera dandawat Pranam. I am very ashamed of asking this question to you. I see Krishna as my lover, and in the future, I want to marry him and become his wife. I want to serve him for his pleasure. Please answer my question according to my Prem bhava, and I apologize for asking such a stupid question.I am the most sinful person here, but I need guidance.
Prabhuji, I am ready to sacrifice any of my material desires for Krishna. I desire nothing in this material world. Even if I desire something, I’ve given that desire to Krishna. If he wants me to have it, he can let me have it. If not, I don’t mind. But the only thing I desire is to become Krishna’s favorite one and to please him. I want him to love me. Krishna’s mercy at least made me not to desire anything materialistic. But I am not fully purified, so I still desire somewhere… even though I want to please him, somewhere I also desire that Krishna loves and accepts me. I want him to see me as his dearmost lover and wife. It’s like we are each other’s priority..and we don’t know anyone else except each other..It’s like ONLY ME and KRISHNA and no one else..nobody..Also it doesn’t mean I am asking only for my pleasure..I can do anything for Krishna .. (I am a beginner in devotion so I am very ignorant ) Please guide me what can I do??
REPLY:
We should not see the activities of Krishna as we see among our material relations.
Krishna is called as Sunya:
Sunya: means Krishna is devoid of all the material qualities.
Rukmini once asked Krishna:
“Krishna ji, You claim yourself to be Nitya Brahmachari. But you have married so many queens and women. Similarly, you say Durvasa rishi is a Nitya Upavasi. But he is taking plenty of food you gave to him just now. How is it possible?”
Krishna smiled and replied:
“Rukmini.. You consider me in the worldly material angle. You are aware that I am the Supreme Personality of Godhead. I have no necessities to marry the girls because I myself am the source of pleasures. I marry them just to fulfill their wish because I can’t upset my devotees. Since I have no need of pleasures, I am Nitya Brahmachari.
Durvasa rishi took the food offered by me. So, he did not eat a materisl food that gives karma. He took my prasadam that relieves one from karma. Those who eat only my prasadam need not take separate fasting. They actually don’t eat, but worship me. Since Durvasa rishi has the habiit of taking only.my prasadam, he is a Nitya Upavasi.
Are you clear now?”
Thus, Krishna is a Nitya Brahmachari . He can’t contain Himself with only one person, ie, you.
A boy too can desire to get Krishna as his husband, because in front of Krishna, all the others are females only and Krishna is the only purusha.
However, already Krishna is the Purusha for all the jivathmas.
(Will Krishna accept all people as wife if all treat Him as husband? READ HERE!)
Then, desiring Him to have as husband for you only is not possible.
Krishna is capable of having innumerable wives.
He married 16,108 queens who were under the captivity of Naraka Asura.
Every queen was thinking that Krishna is living with her only.
Because, Krishna lived in 16,108 palaces with 16,108 queens without the knowledge of other queens.
Of course, you did not expect Krishna to love you only. However, you seem to be very possessive about Krishna.
Not only you, every queen was like that.
It is natural for girls to develop possessiveness with their loved ones.
Boys too develop such possessiveness with their beloved girls. Even murders happen because of this possessiveness.
So, you can get Krishna as husband even in Goloka if you get liberated from this material bondage.
However, until you remain on earth, you should accept a boy as your husband like Gopis did.
Krishna is your soulmate; Even the wives of a man can love Krishna as her soulmate.
You only can’t be His wife; A girl can’t desire to be an exclusive wife of Krishna. Because you can’t pack the Sun into a bottle.
Krishna is like Sun. He has unlimited potencies and capabilities to marry innumerable persons.
However, He will treat you in such a way that you feel that He is loving you only.
He will give that kind of satisfaction to you.
So, marry a boy and follow devotion along with him.
(If a girl loves Krishna, how can she marry someone else? READ HERE!)